Monday, March 29, 2021

On Having Written


When we added a deck

and more windows our

little dark cabin turned 

into a treehouse where 

the children inside us

are never alone.

Today the wind is so wild

branches wave their

loud warnings and 

an unmoored unmanned

motorboat twists, lost among

whitecaps on the pond.

At the feeder, Karl Marx

and his life partner 

Rosa Luxembourg -- I think of them 

as my cardinals but of course ownership 

is an idea they’d staunchly reject -- 

take patient, generous turns with 

the nuthatches, titmice, and

jays. That poor bluejay. 

His weight on the bar snaps 

the “order here” window shut

like a trap. He waits

not understanding this seed’s 

not for him. Nothing against blue jays

or squirrels or even raccoons but

black-oiled sunflower hearts are 

not cheap. You know?

The goldfinches will soon 

blaze forth their gender when

warmth and desire makes

only the males burst into flame.

My baby birds are all flown but

these grandfather giants who

introduced me to Karl Marx

and Rosa still burst

into new life each Spring

a cacophony of blossoms and bold

crop of cherries on which

waxwings will feast. And I’ll funnel 

boiled sugar water into

a tube, which will bring back, 

I hope, the hummingbird

whom I call Buzz. 

If the rapscallion raccoon who 

broke two good feeders

last summer while stealing

the seed appears once again 

I will feed him some

rice cakes and coo at his 

wee greedy hands that are 

so much like ours. If he

can’t make it, that’s okay, too.  

I’ll just doze in the sun in 

my Mother’s Day chair,

unmasked, a lot like last year,

when the story I’m writing 

about summer and why to 

save trees 

was just a stroke in my notebook 

a seed in my heart.